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Thursday, December 8th, 2005
5:19 pm	with my foot on your neck sup! long live table 12....if and when i ever get married table 12 will be the head table. so i guess the only real news that i have is that i finally asked out nadia! about fucking time. we went out last thursday and saw the new harry potter movie...which was way to long...it was coo because we finally got to spend some time alone together, for the first time. everything went really good. friday lance and i felt like bowling so we went to oak lanes. i called nadia and she came with. it was sweet novak and his whole crew came out, it was a fucking blast. we definitely need to bring back the cup/belt/bowling pin. sat she had this dinner to go to but said she'd stop by whatever bar we were at after she got done. so before we go to the bar mizzi lance and i meet up with jenny, the chick that works at hooters and the hooters girl sister. so i order the steak w/pepper butter sauce. the food comes and i eat the steak but the butter sauce in a little side dish and fucking cold. so i eat the steak in like 5 seconds the waiter comes back and is like how was it. i told him it was good except that the butter sauce was cold and i wished it was heated up. he said he could heat it up know and i said what so i can do a shot of it. so he laughed and went away. a few minuter later he returns and says if you do the shot of the pepper butter sauce he'll give us all free sundays. who am i to pass up free desert? so i do the pepper butter sauce shot. it was fucking gross but we all got free ice cream...and i paid for it till about 1pm... which just my luck was about the time that nadia finally got to the bar. and goddamn did she look fucking great in the black dress that she wore..ask mizzi he was there. sunday we talked on the phone a bit and made another date for her to come over monday to watch a movie. we ended up watching say anything because she'd never seen it. oh and congrats to carol and brock for having another baby girl which they had on monday night. so it was a good night. the last two night we've been up to around 1pm just talking..it's been great. oh and she asked me out too! we're going to the state basketball game on sat. at the palace...i don't really know why i felt like sharing all that except that for the first time in a long time i'm really fucking happy....and excited and nervous and HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #sex# for novak: i'd give her the TF Current Mood: mischievous (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
7:36 pm	this is our club, this is our home, we'll never stand alone, we will always look out for each other outside these walls, in the world wherever we might go we will always look out for each other. damn i love the shit my brother writes. and i fucking love all my friends...even the ones i don't see or talk to as much as i'd like. um p.t's revenge dec.22nd alvins...we will be playing 72 songs..haha not really but we will be playing all my favorites and one of my least favorite, 734. in the im a big fucking dork category i've decided to read all the star wars books starting at the begining with the first darth maul book. i must be crazy buts it's just something i've always wanted to do. other books i've recently read are in no particular order: enders game by orson scott card, this is my favorite book of all time it's a fantasy book but it took me all of 12 hours to read it. neverending story by michael ende, this goes into way more detail then the movie. the movie only goes into about the 120 pages. there are another 280 pages in the book! star wars: a new hope star wars: the empire strikes back star wars: shadow of the empire star wars: return of the jedi the outsiders by s.e. hinton...this is a chick i had no idea the outsiders was written by a female, it made the book all the more better..since its written from a males point of view the virgin suicides by jeffrey eugenides...i hated this book and can't believe i actually read the whole thing. the movie is way better. all the girls are dead and there was still 100 pages of babel. very boring read. if you're having trouble falling asleep let me know and you can borrow this piece of crap other than that congrats matt and aleta the wedding was a blast! only 32 more star wars books to go! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
5:48 pm	"this job would be great if it weren't for the fucking customers" "which ones" "all of 'em" i only have one thing to say and that is that i'm now phoneless, for a day or two. a fucking customer stole my goddamn cell phone right off the counter today! aaaaahhhhhhhhhh! the whole day has been shit but that was the iceing on the mother fucking cake. so now i have to buy a new phone.aaaaahhhhhhhhhhh. so basically i could blame other people but its my fault. i left it somewhere i shouldn't have and then forgot about it. the thing is this particular customer comes in once or twice a week. so i made a copy of the fucking cameras that cought this douchbage from three different angles stealing my phone and took it to the police and filed a report. the officer said to call them when the guy comes back into the store and they'll come and get him. what a fucking asshole i hope this fucker does come back. stupid cell phones. stupid me. stupid fuck that stole my phone. stupid live journal. stupid ass. stupid me not getting the insurance on my phone. stupid me for paying all my bills early and not having enough money to buy another damn phone. stupid cell phones. hahahah stupid subway for remodeling the store with new sneezeguards that i can put my cell phone on and then have it get stolen buy some stupid white trash ass fuck phone stealing fucktard. Current Mood: best day of my life (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
11:53 pm	you think youre over with it dont want to talk about it ill tell you something you dont wanna know # live # holy fuck batman an update!so basically two thing to say. first is that i read the most fucked up book of all time called, "battle royale." this book rates number two on my list of all time favorites. "i am legend" is first and "youth in revolt" has been bumped to the number three slot. this book is the most fucked up book i've ever read. the basic premise is that a bunch of middle school kids are put on an island set up by the government. on the island the students have to kill each other to survive, the last one standing gets a life long pension from the government. this is totally fucked up. just think if we were all put on an island and had to kill each other, how fukced up would that be. kill all yor best friends or be killed for not killing them. it's kinda like "catch 22" meets "lord of the flies." this book was totally disturbing and yet i couldn't put it down. and the end of every chapter is how many students are left in the game. with is kinda morbid but you almost wanna sneak a peak when each chapter starts just to see if anyone dies. i know that sounds creepy but read the book and you'll understand. this is also the most graphic book i've ever read. i almost stopped reading it a few times just because of how graphic the description of each murder is. the book is over 600 pages long and i read it in three days. i couldn't put it down. one night i read till 6 in the morning then went to sleep and had fucking dreams that i was on the island. then i'd wake up in a sweat thinking thank god the dream was over then fall right back asleep and be in the same spot in the dream. they made the book into a movie in japan. somehow it got stopped from coming into the u.s. and i've been told that you can't buy it. however i know you can get it from amazon so i might just have to buy it form there. a friend of a friend also said that he had a copy and would burn it for me but i have yet to hear back from him as to if he ever got around to it. demeester you would love this book. you got me turned onto all this h.p. lovecraft stuff so know i turn you on to this. if anyone wants to read it let me know and i'll let you borrow it. second thing is that at work we start a list for a 2 disc cd entitled "great soundtrack songs of the 80's" there are however a few catches to getting the song on the disc. 1. it has to be from an 80's movie (obviously) 2. the song has to be memorable 3. the song has to have been written in the 80's...such as can't buy me love has the song can't buy me love but because it wasn't written in the 80's it doesn't count. so here's the list so far: 1. pretty woman - must have been love, roxette 2. maniquein 2 - nothings gonna stop us now, starship 3. top gun - danger zone, kenny loggins 4. footloose - footloose, kenny loggins 5. breakfast club - don't you forget about me, simple minds 6. say anything - in your eyes, peter gabriel 7. karate kid - you're the best, bill conti 8. karate kid 2 - glory of love, peter certera 9. st. elmos fire - st. elmos fire, john par 10. rocky 3 - eye of the tiger, survivor 11. neverending story - neverending story, limihl 12. goonies - goonies are good enough, cyndi lauper 13. back to the futue - back in time, huey lewis 14. fat times at ridgemont high - american girl, tom petty 15. caddyshack - i'm alright, kenny loggins 16. pretty in pink - pretty in pink, the psychedelic furs 17. weird science - weird science, oingo boingo 18. the transformers - the touch, stan bush 19. beverly hills cop - the heat is on, glenn frey 20. dirty dancing - hurgry eyes, eric carmen 21. dirty dancing - time of my life, bill medley and jennifer worner 22. national lampoons vacation - holiday road, lindsey buckingham 23. cocktail - kokomo, beach boys 24. over the top - meet me halfway, kenny loggins 25. risky business - in the air tonight, phil collins 26. purple rain - purple rain, prince 27. license to drive - get outta my dreams, get into my car, billy ocean 28. desperately seeking susan - someday someway, marshall crenshaw 29. short circuit - here's johnny, el debarge 30. short circuit 2 - holding out for a hero, bonnie tyler 31. sixteen candles - turning japanese, the vapors thats all we have so far. if you have any other songs please let me know so we can add then to the cd. i actually had to check out each song, thanks to imdb.com, to make sure they were in the 80's and to find out who actually sang some of these songs. i shoud've just put down kenny loggins for everyone of them i think we wrote like half of them. # sex # um... whats good for the goose is good for the gander hehe sex is coo p.s. i didn't spell check this so sorry for all the misspellings hahaha Current Mood: geeky (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 21st, 2005
8:00 pm	when masturbations lost its fun you're fucking lazy!!! #live# haha yeah i am. so today my mom came into scrubway for some free food. after i gave it to her i told her that miz and i get to move into the apartment on the 28th now. she said that was sweet and then told me that she will buy me some new bedroom furniture! holy crap is that fucking awesome of her. i didn't ask her to do this or even mention to her or my dad that i needed new bedroom stuff. i love my mom she's great. i think this is probably her way of saying thanks for getting out of the house. but whatever its extremely nice of her to do this for me. by the way the 28th is next fucking tuesday thats a fucking week away from now. i can't wait. working at 8 mile this week has been great. its such a more laid back place then the 5 mile store. i can actually take a break and sit down, it's nice and i miss working with the people over there. even the worst day at 8 mile is better then the best at 5. #sex# who wants to break in the new place next week????? Current Mood: excited (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
10:22 pm	She’s leavin’ now ’cause I heard the slammin of the door The way I know I’ve heard it slam one hundred times before And if I could move I’d get my gun and put her in the ground Oh ruby For god’s sake turn around #live# what a great weekend. franco and alexs wedding was fucking sweet. table fucking 12 ruled the night. other tried to come and sit at table 12 but were shunned away. jean was or waitress and was awesome. at one point in the night i went to table nine and stole their shot glasses, which read "i went to fracno and alexs wedding and all i got was this lousy shot glass." so i went to put the shot glasses in my coat pocket, and being the drunkard that i am, i miss and drop them on the floor. of course they break, glass everywhere.some other waiter goes i think someone overthere just broke a glass. jean looks over and goes doent worry about that, their table 12. fuck yeah jean way to represent! much love. for some odd reason they kept taking the little stand that had the 12 on it. so lance would just go over to another table and take theirs and then make makeshift 12s out of our place cards. it was sweet, the other table where like " why are you taking that" and lance would just say "dont worry about it" and then bring it back to the table. the bar tender was also fucking sweet. we'll just call him mario. we tipped him pretty good at the begining of the night so whenever i went up and there was a big line he would always just waive me up to the front of the line and fill the pitcher before anyone else. it was sweet. i had a great time but as doerr put everyone know that i had a good time. saturday just hung around cleaned a little did some laundry then went to storms graduation party for a little bit. drank a 40 of pbr then went to mizzi for a few. he made some spagetti and we watched part of the last matrix movie before i started to fall asleep so i just walked home and passed out. today was nice and easy woke up drove hannah to scrubway so she could open. she was still fucking wasted and totally reaked of alcohal when i picked her up. when we got to srcubway rog had already been there and done all the opening counts and placed the order, so i got to leave..fuckng sweet. so i went and got bagels for my dad. then i watched the tigers game. it was sweet polonco 10th inning walk off homer for the win. hten to doerrs hockey game..they lost as usual. then came home and watched family guy with my dad, finished my laundry and am now watching to pistons and writting in this journal. on another note it was good to hang out with everyone again on friday. it kinda felt like old times. it put me in a good mood for the entire weekend. #sex# holy crap i've actually given my arm a 3 day weekend....there must be something wrong with me... jessica, i never knew your name, but since i met you i've never been the same. Current Mood: chipper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 16th, 2005
11:11 pm	ooh baby when you cry, your face is momentary, you hide your looks behind these scars #live# franco and alexs wedding is tomorrow. congrats to both of them, this was a long time coming. they are probably the most stable couple that i know. they are perfect for each other. in lew of some news that i got today i have decided to quit smoking for good this time. besides the news i smoked myself stupid the other night and could tell that i was having trouble breathing again. so its goodbye and good riddance to smoking...it was fun while it lasted...well not really fuck you cigarettes i hope you die! 12-10 tonight at work. at least it went by fast. only one dick customer today. he wanted nacho doritos and we only had one bag out. "don't you have any more of these" he says totally snotty. no we're all out i say.. in the entire store he says..yeah we're all out i say again...he then accused me of saying it rudely , which i probably did. he said that i gave him attitude. ok fuck off assfuck. by the way the doritos were in the back..all he had to do was ask nicely..what a fucktard. #sex# at least its with someone i love..oh yeah and tomorrow alex is hooking me up with one of her friends from england..i hope shes hot but if not then at least have a killer english accent. Current Mood: drained (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
11:40 pm	would you hose me down with holy water if i get to hot..hot #live# i just wanted to say that meatloaf kicks ass...best night ever at crazy horse, demeester and mizzi singing "i would do anything for love" hahaa those were the days...doerr i think this should be the anakin cover. on another note paul and neil just moved back to michigan. which is coo because now i get to hang out with them too...i gotta take them to an m-80's concert next month. i didnt say fuck in this entry till just now so now i feel that i have accomplished everything that had to be done tonight so long farewell adddfkjjjoidsagj;dlgk whatever i didnt major in german #sex# jessica has the rabbit in her purse Current Mood: mischievous (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
9:05 pm	as ice cold hands rip into your heart, that's if you've still got one that's left inside that cave you call a chest. #live# im finally getting out of my parents house. on june 30th i will be moving into the park place apartments in northville. im super fucking pumped for this. it's been nice living with my parents but i cant wait to get out of here and be on my own again. maybe even start dating, hahaha yeah that was a good one. on friday cans and i went to 12 oaks to buy some candles. my sister had burned all of the ones i left in the bedroom when she moved into the room for a month. we went to the white barn candle company/ bath and body works. it was freakin sweet. everything was on sale i got almost $100 worth of stuff for $40. damn am i a bargin shopper or what? after that we went to tgi fridays and both got steak it was so good. it was good to hang out with cans again we hadn't hung out like that for a long time. saturday sucked i had to open and then go back and close 8 mile scrubway. it sucked because i wanted to go to francos bachelor party but instead had to fucking work. iwas still gonna go but i was so tired after the second shift that i just went home and went to sleep. sunday i just read all day. almost finishing the lion the witch and the wardrobe. #sex# another fun weekend with lefty Current Mood: happy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 7th, 2005
10:28 pm	baby tonight you're a star, and i'm the big dipper #live# today fucking sucked at work. i had to get their at 6am because the stupid fuckers at night didn't bake enough bread for the school lunches for today. so first off i figure if they didn't bake enough at least they would've panned the bread...wrong!!!!!!!! how can you not pan the mother fucking bread!! are you fucking retarded!?!? one of the guys closing has worked at scrubway for 2 yrs and yet he still forgets to pan the bread, you're fired! oh and by the way you forgot to lock the fucking door!!!!!!!!!! what the hell is wrong with people. this guy also didn't do the dressing or prep tomatoes for the school lunches. the store was left a mess and as usual i get to clean up the fucking mess. fuck you rod. i can NOT believe you weren't fired for this. apparently the only way to get fired from scrubway is to steal money, anything else is fair game. i'm sure if certain other people did the same thing they would've been fired asap. it pisses me off that i have a boss who has no balls. rod is the biggest fucking slacker who obviously doesn't do his work. he tried blaming everything on the new girl who's only been there for a week. rod grow a fucking pair and be a man, you fucked up. it was your fault. it wasn't even busy! step up a be fucking responsible. maybe thats to much to ask, to be responsible. well "fuck you, you suck, i hate you, get lost, go away you asshole, you fucker get lost" god i love the vindictives what great lyrics. i found out that my sister gets to work on like the 60th floor at the sears tower for her internship, the lucky bitch. so far she says that she loves it. but it's only been one day. she said last night that the bosses took the tax division to harry carrys for dinner. again luck bitch. well she worked her ass off for this so im happy for her. yesterday i went swimming with, lance, matt, jen, and nadia at some apartment complex that noone belonged too, it was pretty sweet. it felt so good to get in the water, that and nadia looked so hot...you missed it novak...bikini! thats all i have to say about that. after swimming i came home showered and then lance came and picked me up and we went over to tonys place to watch the pistons game. way to go pistons im so glad they won..are we looking at new back to back shirts! that would be sweet, except i don't think they can come up with a slogan that beats "hammer time" tonys was coo jen, nadia, beth, the hooters girl(who's name i can't ever remember, wonder why?) and like 10 other people came over because they couldn't get into any bar, so we had a little party. "again it goes unspoken" yeah no shit. i had the perfect chance to ask out nadia last night and blew it. you know how it is one of those things where you look back on it and want to fucking kick youself. she was talking about how shes seen all the star wars movies except the new one and that she has noone to go with and how she wants to go see it really bad. how the hell did i not tell her that i'd go with her to see it. man am i a fucking idiot. she's just as big a dork as i am about star wars and she loves all the lord of the rings movies. wow, almost like a dream girl. oh and i also found out that she's lactose intolerant too...this is just getting to weird. hopefully the next time i see her i can follow my own advice and grow a pair! #sex# hehehehe it was a good weekend. oh yeah and i also saw an amateur porn video that a friend did! she was actually pretty good in it. she made it for her boyfriend or ex-boyfirend i don't know i wasn't listening. Current Mood: dirty (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 26th, 2005
10:57 pm	to the love, i left my conscience pressed between the bible in the drawer. "what did it ever do for me" i say. it never calls me when im down. #live# so today mizzi and i went and looked at a house, it sucked. they said it had two bedrooms but one of them was as big as my parents walk in closet. i seriously couldn't even fit my bed into it. but there were a bunch of other houses around in the same neighborhood so mizzi is gonna go look at some of those tomorrow and next week. my parents ore going out of town this weekend. which would be fucking sweet except for the fact that i have to work all fucking weekend. well as of right now i have sunday off but im sure that i'll end up working it somehow. last friday at work i call this customer a "prissy little bitch." the story goes as so: this lady comes in and leans against the glass with her back to me. after a few minutes i ask her if i could help her with anything. she turns around and it like "yeah i want a sandwich with lettuce and italian dressing." i ask her if she wants any bread with the lettuce or just a salad. she says " oh yeah haha white bread." so i start cutting the white bread when she screams at me "no not on white bread its fattening!" so what kind of bread whould you like i reply. "monterey cheddar" she says. its on white bread i say."oh" is her brilliant replay. then her friend croaks up and tells her to just get it on wheat bread. so i cut the wheat bread and ask her if she would like any meat on the sandwich."oh i dont know surprise me" says the genius. ok how about turkey. again she screams "no i hate turkey. i want ham." why she couldnt have said ham the first time is beyond me. then she asks for EXTRA fucking cheese. cheese is fattening i say. this upsets the beast. "what do you mean its fattening, dont you have any non-fat cheese?" at this point i want to slap her silly. no just the fat kind i say. everyone in line is now laughing at this stupid bitch. so i put the cheese on and then the lettuce and the italian dressing which i tell her is not fat free or low fat. she "doesnt care". after paying she, she gets the combo by the way with chips and a pop, nacho cheese doritos and coke. pop is not diet and chips are not baked of low fat. so much for that figure huh. so she sits down with her obese friend. oh yeah by the way this chick is drop dead gorgeous, perfect everything! a 15 out of 10. and yeat i still want to smack her for being a dolt. so her and the fat one are talking and she keeps looking at me and giving us all this snotty bitchy looks. then i hear the classic "that guy is just a grumpy old man. "well at least im not a prissy little bitch" is my rebuttal. she then gets up and leaves. sandwich half eaten. now i'll admit to being a dirty old man and yes grumpy too, but his chick just hit every last nerve i had. she called on tuesday still super pissed off asking to talk to the owner. i told her it was me. she didnt seem to like that. she hung up and called back twice more that day before i left. everytime i answered the phone she would say "where the owner" and then hang up. i think i made her cry...fucking bitch. itold jay the owner about this and he laughed. fuck you subway customer..p.s. stop eating the pizza and go next door to the damn pizza place #sex# my left arm hurts and its not the same with the right. Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
10:19 pm	and when it all goes to hell will you be able to tell me sorry with a straight face live journal: so a few people wanted to see this stupid thing updated and i guess its been awhile so here we go... the first thing that i have to say is that i am super fucking proud of my sister for graduating. i can tell her how proud of her i am but she will never really understand how happy i am for her. congrats val you're the first in fam. she also got an internship at earnst & young in chicago and is leaving next week to go for 10 weeks i believe. she told me i had to come visit so we can goto the strip clubs together...if any of you know the story of the last time i went to the strip club with my sister then you know why this might not happen, but who knows. i know i will definitely be out there to visit a few times, especially for her birthday. i've actually been hanging out with val alot since shes been home which is cool because i havent had a lot of time to spend with her since shes been away at school. so this weekend we went out to the beach grill in st. clair shores to see the m-80's. as usual i was fucking wasted and probably made an ass out of myself. but it was a good time with the bnfnh crew and the usual ladies. i did however see this girl kelly there that i have kinda known since high school, i think we had a class together but im not really sure. but we danced and sang all the songs together for the second half of the set. this girl floors me and i dont know why, she just has this way about her i guess. she comes into subway every know and again and she always has a great attitude and one of the best smiles ever. we got into a conversation about the m-80's not playing "your love" by the outfield anymore. she said it was one of her favorite 80's songs, i agreed. towards the end of the set we figured they weren't going to play it so we sang it to each other. ah how cute. at the end of the night while leaving the club i went to take my usual "piss before we leave" and was apparently in the bathroom for a long time. i was told that my sister sent novak into the bathroom to check on me to see if i was ok...novak said when he got in there i was just standing there taking a piss and wobbling back and forth...he said that he thought i had passed out standing up...i was fine. although it wouldnt have been the first time i passed out standing up taking a piss...damn 21st birthday... the next big thing i want to say is that im happy for my brother sticking to his guns and getting bullets to broadway off the ground. he has been working really hard at it, writing all the songs and lyrics and pretty much doing almost all of the work for them. so im excited for him to finally get it going. it looks like they are probably going to be getting signed to fat, which is one of the 3 labels they wanted to be on. they go one tour in august with the suicide machines, which is super cool. however the closest they come to detroit is chicago at the metro on august 26th. right now i know novak and i are definately going so if anyone else wants to go let me know. i guess i should update about me a little but theres not really much to say right now..work is stressful as hell...im living with my parents with is ok and i love them for putting up with me but i cant wait to get out of here...my friends are the fucking best in the world, i would die for all of them...been to 5 tigers games so far this summer and plan on going to at least 20 or so more...m-80's shows have been a blast, cant wait to see them again in a few weeks (they better play "you love" this time)...my love life is nonexistant, which im actually ok with because im having such a great summer, so far its been a blast i can only hope that it gets better...i cant believe this but im actually pretty happy with where my life has taken me, sure i wish a few things were different but for the most part i cant complain! sex journal: is back and its in effect...haahaha yeah fucking right i think ive developed carpal tunnel syndrome.....whats that oh yeah mario golf 3rd hole birdied it....twice.... my favorite quote of the year so far, "have i turned you into some kind of anal freak." it still makes me laugh when i think about it...its gonna be hard to top that one Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 18th, 2004
8:20 pm	is it true is it really really true # live # i'm on my way just set me free HOME SWEET HOME..yeahyeah..i'm on my way, i'm on my way home sweet home..i should be home within a month. ths job fucking sucks. i hate sitting in a fucking office in a goddamn cubicle calling people who don't want to pay there fucking bills..its so damn depressing i fucking hate it..i wil most likely move back into the mizzi house and be back at scrubway..but we'll see..i bought a new car too it mini # sex # yeah lots and in my grandparents bed too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn i'm a dirty dirty man Current Mood: depressed (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
6:56 pm	and when you're only 23 its unattractive to complain about your sore back # live # well i'm 25 so fuck you alkaline trio! so the other day i called in sick to work because i wasnt feeling good. so i go to my grandparents medicine cabinet and everythng in it expired like 3 years ago. os i goto the store to get some soup and drugs. while i'm checking out i lift up the soup to put it on the little belt thngy and my fucking back goes out. i could barely even walk. i had to have this guy in the parking lot help me put my soup and chips and pizza and drugs in the car cause i couldn't even lift it. i get home and can't even turn the key in the lock to unlock the apartment door, it serioulsy took 5 minutes to open the fucking door. so i get in and call my aunt to come take me to the hospital..but guess what shes not home. she gets home 3 hours later and takes me to the doctors office. so once there the nurse takes all the regular nurse shit and goes "your heart rate is up and so is your bloodpressure, you're in a lot of pain right now aren't you?!?!?!" of course you stupid bitch! if i could've moved at all i would've fucking smacked her. so she went and got the doctor right away and she gave me some vicadine and flexcil. and then told me to go get an ex-ray because the part of the muscle that hurts is on the left side pretty high up on my back and she wanted to make sure that it didn't affect my lungs or heart when the muscle was swollen. so i go down ther eand cant get an apointment till tomorrow morning at 8am. so il still hurts but is getting slowly better. i miss all you guys so much and wish i was back at home with you guys or you could all come visit. some of you fuckers better come visit for my birthday!!!! # sex # when katie was here it was great! i love that girl. i miss her so much. and i miss the sex too! hehe. although i think i'm out of comission for alitle while:( Current Mood: sore (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:56 pm	and when you're only 23 its unattractive to complain about your sore back # live # well i'm 25 so fuck you alkaline trio! so the other day i called in sick to work because i wasnt feeling good. so i go to my grandparents medicine cabinet and everythng in it expired like 3 years ago. os i goto the store to get some soup and drugs. while i'm checking out i lift up the soup to put it on the little belt thngy and my fucking back goes out. i could barely even walk. i had to have this guy in the parking lot help me put my soup and chips and pizza and drugs in the car cause i couldn't even lift it. i get home and can't even turn the key in the lock to unlock the apartment door, it serioulsy took 5 minutes to open the fucking door. so i get in and call my aunt to come take me to the hospital..but guess what shes not home. she gets home 3 hours later and takes me to the doctors office. so once there the nurse takes all the regular nurse shit and goes "your heart rate is up and so is your bloodpressure, you're in a lot of pain right now aren't you?!?!?!" of course you stupid bitch! if i could've moved at all i would've fucking smacked her. so she went and got the doctor right away and she gave me some vicadine and flexcil. and then told me to go get an ex-ray because the part of the muscle that hurts is on the left side pretty high up on my back and she wanted to make sure that it didn't affect my lungs or heart when the muscle was swollen. so i go down ther eand cant get an apointment till tomorrow morning at 8am. so il still hurts but is getting slowly better. i miss all you guys so much and wish i was back at home with you guys or you could all come visit. some of you fuckers better come visit for my birthday!!!! # sex # when katie was here it was great! i love that girl. i miss her so much. and i miss the sex too! hehe. although i think i'm out of comission for alitle while:( Current Mood: sore (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 21st, 2003
4:45 pm	spoil myself # live # today i got my first paycheck. and i have to say that it was glorious. yes glorious. first of all they gave me an extra dollar on top of what thye told me i would be making at the interview. then i got some overtime, less than an hour, which was sweet. i guess that they pay you overtime anything over 40 hours per week not anything over 80 for 2weeks. so i was pretty happy about that. so i thought i would buy myself something nice. but then i saw a best buy on my way to buy a few new shirts so i stopped in and bought a few cds. actually 3. first i got less than jake hello rockview because the other 3 copies i have of it dont play anymore and i miss that cd. second i got the new blink-182 album. so far i have listened to the first 9 songs and am not that impressed. more disappointed than anything else. i expected alot more. none of its fast or even that catchy like most of their other stuff. if any of you are thinking of buying it don't. send be your address and i'll mail you a copy of it. and lastly i bought the new mxpx album. i didnt even know that they were coming out with a new album. i actually heard the new song in the store and it sparked my interest so i bought it. i was also going to buy the outkast album but passed on it and put it back at the lat second. i did the same thing with the new peter gabriel album hits. i t was really hard to part with that one so i think i might so back and get it this weekend. and of course i never mad e it to buy the shirts i was going to get. oh well maybe next paycheck. today on my way home from work i realized that i really miss playing with the band. it sucks not having that outlet anymore. i wish i was still playing. iwould write more but i have to go change loads in the laundry room. i'll write more tomorrow. # sex # is that some kind of joke. are you making fun of me. you wanna go. fine . owe uh owe damnit stop bitting. hehe (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 19th, 2003
11:11 pm	sleepy, bored and fucking pissed # live # i just got done watching the extended version of the two towers. it was fucking sweet. it went along with the book nicely. they did however mess up an edit in this one and its pretty bad too. there is a scene where aragorn says something to gimli and then gimli answers if they make it through the night. the scene comes in with aragon in the middle of the last word in what he's saying and then gimli answers it's pretty obvious. god i'm a fucking dork! i'm pretty bored right now too, it sucks to watch movies alone. and not have anyone right there to talk to after you finish watching it. sure i could call someone but it's not the same, it just not as personal. and lastly for tonight i am fucking pisseed off at the whole churchills revenge or whatever the hell there name is crew! aparently they were to buy my bass cabinet and bass and tuner. i told johnny they could have it all for $450. pretty nice deal if you ask me. so he said yeah they would pay me for it. here it is almost 20 fucking days later and not a goddamn cent. everytime i call johnny he says he'll take care of it. well so far you've taken care fo jack fucking shit! the thing that pisses me off the most is that they have been using the equiupment for practice. they have a show on thursday that i'm sure they were gonign to take the cabinet to. that fucking pisses me off since i have been more then cooperative in helping them with this, however i have seen abso-fucking-lutey nothing back in return! so i told johnny and matt and mizzi and my brother that they are not to use it at all untill i receive a payment of somekind! so if any of you happen to see them or hear them using my shit please let me know. i feel like i have been taken advantage of here. am i wrong in feeling this? i thought that at least a few of the people in this band were my friends, again am i wrong in thinking this? i guess i'm just dissapointed in certain people. i feel like a complete ass here. oh yeah and johnny was supposed to call me back today and let me know about the arrangements he made with jp today. do you think i got a fucking call? hell fucking no! what i thought was a friendship that was begining to be repared is now falling apart all over again. someone in this band better fucking call me tomorrow and let me know whats going on! other then that i miss you guys all so much! i can't wait till you guys come out. if you dont come out here before christmas i'll see you then. i have christmas through that weekend off. so i should be home sometime on christmas eve.ok i'm off to bed i'm tired as shit. i miss you all. but i miss katie the most, you actually got me excited about moving into the city. i almost called you earlier to call jessicas sister today and find out about places to live. well i love you and i hope you had a nice long bath and a good cup o tea. love you all see you soon. #sex# hhhhmmmm nothing exciting on this end, maybe someone can tell me a story or something. oh yeah i just thought of something. katie said she was gonna jump me when her finals are over...that day cant get here fast enough. maybe i'll try and hold off till then. . . . .hahahaahaha ok sorry thats probably not gonna happen. got thing i have an active imagination and plus last weekend was pretty fucking sweet! Current Mood: pissed off (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 17th, 2003
10:44 pm	i just called to say i love you # live # yeah ok its cheesey and yeah i ALMOST said it. but i stopped in the middle and started laughing when i realized i was about to say it. this weekend was great i got to see katie which was the best. when i saw her i feel in love with her all over again. she even grabbed my ass before i grabbed hers, what a horny little devil. god i love her, she's perfect. saturday my cousin jennifer had her bat mitzvah it was pretty cool but long as hell. the service was 2 fucking hours long, a couple times i could tell she was even getting bored. after that katie and i went to get her a card and got stuck in fucking traffic on the way to the restaurant and ended up getting there late. then we got seated at the little kids table. so being the lottle kid that i am i threw a little fit, basically cause i was pissed about the traffic but hey some little mother fucki9er stole my goddamn seat. hey did i hear a 9er in there. so i just drank a few drinks to settle down. then we ate and we had better food then the adults did, so i felt alittle better then i ate 3 helpings and needed a cig. so i go to smoke and everyone has to come out into the hallway and talk so i lit one up anyways. it was coo to see my mom, dad, and sister too. i wish kev would've came though i miss that bastard. i actually miss my dad the most out of my family. i never really realized how much time i've spent with him and how much he's helped me out. i miss him alot. we still talk a few times a week but its not the same. we dont get to sit down and talk about shit and it sucks and i miss that alot. but i still miss katie the most when she was here i slept like a baby. i fall asleep so fast when i'm laying next to her, i jsut feel so comfortable, like i'm at home. where i belong. i love you katie and i cant wait for the next time i get to clasp my hands around you. haha that was stupid but i thought it would be funny, it wasn't. but i still love you. have fun in class today. i'm off to watch star wars. # sex # like i said earlier she grabbed my butt first! oh yeah! for once i'll spare everyone the "gorry" details and just say that i had a wonderful weekend. oh yeah and i almost killed katie....but in a good way hehehehehehehehehe yeah it was good. i cant wait to do it again and againg and again, but hey she'd only let mme do it once...whimp. next time its on, no holds bared...i odn't know what that means but i love you and thanks for a great weekend. Current Mood: chipper (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 10th, 2003
9:56 pm	crap carp shit crap better tired tired tired tired asleep # live # well that is how i felt all day like shit. as office space would put i did actually have a case of the mondays, if you call the mondays the runs. haha to much information i know iknow but you read it hahaha tricked you into it. i miss you guys all so much. i jsut talked to haimour tonight and he is sick as hell. but it was good to hear from him. we talked for a while and then i ahd to go to the bathroom:( haha you fell for it again, you fool. just kidding i'll stop tha know. so you guys should all come out the second weekend in december katie is already coming out that weekend and i think haimour and my brother are coming out too. that would be awesome. party over hear! i can't believe i just wrote that. anyway i'm off to bed cause i need more then four hours if sleep tonight. so long farewell a blah blah blah blah blah. hey katie . . . . . . . . . . . . .i love you Current Mood: exhausted (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 8th, 2003
10:26 pm	i got some bad ideas involving you and me # live # yes folks i'm fucking back! well in the journal that is. i am gone. i am in chicago and, no offense, i never want to come back. i fucking love it out here. the job is fucking sweet. everyone is super nice and i've been invited over to two peoples house for thanksgiving. i only met these people a few days ago and they're already offering to let me come over to there houses and eat dinner with their families. how fucking wierd, but what a nice gesture. the job is great it's simple, most monkeys could probably do this job. the only thing that sucks is that i have to get up at 615 every morning to get ready for work. other then that it's great. to everyone who reads this, which is like 5 or 6 people, i miss you guys all so much. one of the few reasons i didn't want to leave was because of my friends. you are the best and i miss you all so much. to show you what a dork i am i brought in pictures of the halloween party and showed everyone. oh and i have to us an alias because there is another kid named jeff in the office, so i use matt. and working in collections i think i smoke about half a pack of cigarettes a day, but then again so does everyone in the office. lets see what else have i done. i went to see the new matrix movie on thursday. it fucking sucked. if i wanted to see a fucking star wars movie i would've went to see star wars. the whole movie was a fucking cop out. so i'll ruin it for all. in the first movie someone is explaining the matrix to neo and the fact that he is the one and he says, "Jesus christ." and ok he turns out to be jesus or god or whatever and agent smith is the devil. whooptie freaking doo. my favorite [art is the neo can use his powers in the matrix and now out of the matrix. why? who fucking knows. he even asks the oricale," why can i stop the machines and still have these feeling even though im not in the matrix?" her fucking answer, "i don't know." WHAT!!!!! fuck you! what a fucking cop up. if you're gonna fucking write a movie cover all your fucking facts and don't leave so many loose fucking ends. oh yeah and the end leaves it open for another godddamn movie. if, and probably when, there is another matrix movie i will definately not be attending. BRING ON THE RETURN OF THE KING! i've said it before and i'll say it again this will be one of the best movies of all time. i have a feeling it will be one of my, if not my, favorite movie...EVER! I LOVE KATIE, YES I DO, I LOVE KATIE AND SO SHOULD YOU! just a little jingle i came up with just now. of all the things i miss i miss katie the most. even though we talk every night it's not the same. i can't hold her or kiss her of love her. i miss every little fucking thing about her. the pictures i have of her are great but you can't touch a picture or cuddle up next to it or light it's cigarette or grab it's butt. and it doesn't make fun of you or call you a dork or rub your belly. and it doesn't watch cubs games with you eventhough it hates watching sports on tv. i can't wait to see katie next friday. it's only been a week but it seems like and eternaty. i can't wait to give her the biggest hickie of all time, hehe. maybe i'll put it somewhere where no can see it, yet i know it's there. i love you katie. more than you will ever know or possible even understand. i took this job for a better future. i did this because i wanted a future. back at home there was no future, there was subway. and i couldn't have that anymore. i wanted something real, something that i was proud of myself for. you, katie, helped me see that. you helped me to understand that i am a fucking zillion times better then fucking subway! that i can be someone and i can matter and i can make a difference. and i can be wanted and needed and most of all i can be better. and i am a better person since i've met you, and i love you and i thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything that you have ever done for me, said to me and taught me. i love you. i miss you. you make me strong and you make me be true to myself. i hope in the future we will be together forever and that i can in someway repay you for all that you have done for me. i hope we can start a family and live happily ever after, as cheesy as that is. it's as simple as i love you. and i know you love me. but love is complicated and has thrown us this curve, for a few months anyway. but i don't think it's really a curve, this will just make us all the more stronger and help us grow together. you know that i'm scared right now and i know that you are scared too but together we will be great and i am ready to take on the world with you. i can't wait for you to get here so we can begin a life that will be ours. damnit. i'm crying. so i'm gonna stop know, i hope that all made sense. katie i miss you and love you. and everyone else i love you guys too, give each other kisses for me. i miss you all. you guys should come out in december sometime. # sex # sex with katie is the best. she's the greatest. she's fucking dead this weekend!!!!!!!get ready baby because i don't care who hears us! i'm gonna butter your bread, or something. 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